Copyright Vladimir Kagan, December 26, 2013
The Christmas Holidays are a perfect time to count your blessings and reflect on life.
I am not superstitious nor do I believe in Ouija boards, fortunetellers or soothsayers… I do talk to myself, alone in bed, “Get your act together – enjoy what life has to give you – it is limited in time…” I reminisce on my fifty-four years of marital bliss. Erica was the major player in this saga. Now she appears less frequently in my dreams - her communications are imagined whispers. “Carry on; I’d love to help you – but you are on your own. I left you unexpectedly – try to be happy…”
Happiness was a shared thing. Two years of solitude is not long but at my age it is a lifetime.
Winter is a quiet season; one waits patiently for signs of spring - spring is the time of awakening. Like the flowers that burst from their leafy cocoons; the crocuses that push their green heads out of the earth and explode into delicate purple and yellow flowers. The days grow longer; nights are filled with the pungent scent of the land. Thoughts can once again turn to love: love of nature, love of beauty, love of life – to enjoy the blessing of living. (Winter eludes us here in balmy Palm Beach… it’s spring every day!)
Friends are a blessing; close friends are even more so… I have always loved people, worshipped beauty: in nature, in art in my surroundings. Erica shared this love with me and now I must find it on my own. I find it in the kindness and affection of my many friends. I am a flirt. I enjoy a bear hug, kisses galore, and a snuggle. I love the music that my Gypsy band provided all summer. I loved the happy people I met: young and old – I could dance into the wee hours and party the rest of the night. – I skippered my sailboat and raced it weekly with my wonderful crew…
Life continues in its droll way… I’m looking forward to many happy adventures in 2014….
A small picture album of good years past...
The family circa 1970
Erica in the dunes
Erica hitching a ride on my electric scooter
...and now two years after her passing, my life goes on.
My children, Jessica, Vanessa and Illya at my birthday party
playing accordion with granddaughters Gigi, Sophia and Daughter Vanessa cheering me on!
Coq au Vin - The Gypsy Band that kept me dancing all summer
and the hugs that kept me entertained all year
And finally the joy of sailing my boat!
racing toward the mark on a windy day
The pleasure of sailing Day and Night
and finally, I wish you all a Happy and healthy New Year